I wanted to take sometime to Thank LNF for creating a site where we can all be ourselves. Also always greatful for meeting new friends or really cool people in general... with that being said... on with A Story (_:

 

What?

What’s really good? Asked Jas. Pru’s cousin/BFF…

Jasmine I told you. I don’t feel comfortable up in the…

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Hey LNF...

 I thought I would vent a little on how I been feeling lately...

So I have been coming to terms with being the only LESBIAN, in my family.

It has it's up's and down's. I come from a religious and jamaican background.

Every now and then, I get reminded of my age 26. 27 next month (:

I never came out fully. for fear of abandonment. But they KNOW...

side note= I'm like the only one of my mothers daughters who didnt have a child when I was a…

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A few moments later…

Let me come with you Xiah?

Dez said this as I freshened up my face and mouth in her bathroom sink.

I spat out the mouthwash then asked…

So when the first time your cousin had noticed this mystery dude?

The first picture of them was taken back in April!

April? It’s fucking August now!

So what the Fuck are you going to do?

You can’t hit her Xiah, with that look in your eye I don’t trust you not too…

I won’t hit. I just want to… Continue

I woke up this morning and to my surprise,

you weren't my first thought when I opened my eyes.

I actually smiled as I began my day,

look out world, healings on the way.

No more retreating to the bathroom to have a quick cry,

No more watching others go on while life passes me by.

I'm done being fustrated, without any apparent cause,

or because you're the one who decided it was time for a pause.

It's funny but I still love you, guess…

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So, the other night I had a dream.

I dreamed I was walking thru the mall, jus stuntin.

Hair in a ponytail, shades on, jewelry blingin in tha light,

Just bein me, The real me. The me I've always been.

But too scared to show. Well anyways,

A girl fight jumps off in one of the shops.

Not too serious, jus some lil girls thinkin they tough.

Well the lady workin in the shop comes out, and stands in the hall,

Baby was FIIIIIINNNNNE. Short in…

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So where to begin…

 After the shock of Desiree news, had began to stir less in my mind. I decided I needed to talk to Nela, but waited until I actually had proof. Now I know I‘ve done my share of naughty. But I can’t consider it as actually cheating because we we’re usually separated whenever I dipped set.  Means I can’t be mad at Nela for doing her thing. Seriously though I need to know; is it my relative or…

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TIFFANY CARTER - LIKE RAIN

I happened upon the show when I decided to take a stroll into Giovanni's Room, which is a LGBTQ bookstore located in gayborhood Philadelphia at 12th and Pine.

I have to say I was elated (yes elated) when I saw the dvds...why? Because it was nice to finally come across a show and/or movie I could relate to as an African American lesbian woman. When it comes to finding anything in this realm of entertainment it appears as if we are almost invisible. 

There are a bevy of…

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I have always been attracted to women. With men there was never any full satisfaction from it. I love everything about a woman. With the lesbian lifestyle i never understood why women date studs. I felt if your date a stud you might as well be with a man. Or is that women didn't want the stares bc in the public eye society saw the stud as a man. The day this changed she wooed me. She was a stud but…

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Before you I thought I would not live.

Before you, I had no love to give.

Before you I felt low, not knowing which way to go.

So I appreciate the time you took to hear me whine, your sensitivity was just and right on time.

True friends are often hard to find, especially one so sweet like clementine.

So I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, for bringing me hope as my sadness departs..

 

Dedicated to That Sexy Dani.....

How did I get here? I'm not supposed to be here. At this point in time, with my heart on flat line dying inside over you.

I don't even know why I bother, because your heart belongs to another and I am cursed with the position of being just a friend.…

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Really Desiree began: That’s real smart coming from you Xiah.   

Try not to forget who signs your pay checks, Desiree said as she reached out and gently caressed the left side of Xiah’s cheek.

Why are you really here Desiree? Xiah said as she moved away from her touch.

Oh come now. Don’t be so……

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As the door to Xiah office, continued to knock softly. Xiah reached into her desk drawer to retrieve the wet wipes she kept there.  Tracy shifted through her purse in search of her Juicy Couture perfume. The door knocked once again, as Tracy asked ‘who the fuck is that? Xiah looked at Tracy; to remind her that we’re supposed to be working. She knew better than to answer her question. Xiah knew for sure only one person knocked on her door that…

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Hello Xiah, answers without recognizing the number on display.

Hey Xiah, it's Tracy. I was wondering if you could come in.

Why what happened?

Well the new shipments came in and I'm not sure how to add them to database. 

I thought we went over inventory?

I know but it's really more than I expected. Frankly I'm overwhelmed.

Alright, Xiah gave in. i will be there in a hour.

 

After a much needed 20 minute shower. Xiah felt more relieve it…

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The most difficult thing in this world is being a gay woman trapped in a homophobic world. See I envy those who can come out, and have that community and support that make you feel alright. But my plight is difficult, cuz everyday for me is a fight. With a homophobic mother, there is no support from home; homophobic legislature that could have me fired from my job; and God, oh God I can't even turn to you, cuz my church says you hate me and with my kind you are through.

For years I've…

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Well the show is at it's last. Will we be able to look forward to seeing the women in other movies or what.?

 

I love the LNF show it opens so many doors for women like me who can't really identify with the Hetero community. Don't get me wrong i don't have anything against Heterosexuality people. I've lived that life and have two beautiful children because of it. But I wish as a child I had show's like your to watch. Maybe it wouldn't of took me so long to appreciate who i am as a lesbian women. I thank you the directer,the writers,the…

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we met on the internet

from the first phone call i knew what you wanted

but i thought about it and then i said maybe its not true

and im judging this woman

so i continued to talk to her

and all our conversations were about sex

id try to change the subject but somehow we were back talking about sex

she would say what she could do to me sexually

i made the mistake and had phone sex with her

and i knew it was a mistake

in her…

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love is caring

love is being happy

love is butterflies

love is smiling at the mere thought of her

love is the sunshine on a cloudy day

love is making you feel beautiful even when your at your worst

love is feeling her lips kissing your fears away

love is surprising her just because

love is taking me flaws and all

love is comforting me when im sad or upset

love is passion

love is romance

thats what i feel when…

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